Two weeks ago tonight....

Today has been a hard day. I cried more today than I have since the accident. I am realizing just how long the road back may be, reality hit me today.

Ron was moved from ICU yesterday, which is great news. He is opening his eyes regularly and trying to talk (still mumbling). The leg braces have been removed and his bruising and scrapes are more visible. He was looking around the room and staring at me with blank looks. Jim explained it like this.. "the lights are on but nobody is home."

Left knee and leg where tibia/knee is fractured

View of left foot, two broken toes and stitches on baby toe

Occasionally he would look like Ron, but mostly his looks are blank and confused. Casts and wraps cover each arm and legs. He looks so very thin in the chest, however he has always been on the thin side like my dad. He looks a lot like my dad. We have heard that comment several times from visitors or family who knew my dad. His new room is on the 11th floor and he had two male nurses who were so great. He is getting great care and that is very comforting. His nurses said he sings quite a bit, I tried to get him to sing for me. He wouldn't, I guess he was done singing for the day. We just stared at each other as I tried to make conversation. This is hard, a different hard than losing a loved one. Right now it feels like we have lost him, but not completely. We are hoping he will be back mentally within weeks to a few months. It is hard to say what the time frame will be. Maybe it is good that he isn't mentally aware because of the pain. Does his body need the time to heal a little more before he becomes aware? I expected that because he is awake now we would be able to have some conversation. I have thought about what he might say when he snaps out of this. I have so much hope that he will want to look at this experience as a second chance. It is too early to even know if he will have normal brain function. I am trying to be positive, it is one of those days and I just want to feel sad. I will feel better tomorrow.